January give AWAY and chatting!!!
Streamed live on Dec 23, 2018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ULp_w3ZBcc

hi welcome sorry you guys are gonna hear
my babies um there being a wall on a
cranky side when are they not they
perfectly imperfect and misunderstood
hi Leanne Republican hash how are you
finally you're on yes yes i'm on i am on
i actually have my laptop down here so i
can kind of keep up with the comments a
little bit better baby mm-hmm
I noticed that I just messed up on my on
my title it says January give and
chatting well I guess I could say I'm
kidding again um
ollie is out in the kitchen cooking his
dinner and I am still working on getting
my names in for the drawing I don't know
how to fix this oh it says edit video
maybe I can do this
Oh edit video
anywhere
wait
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so changes
Oh Margo to your daddy
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who is this not working
well there is okay thank you thank you
yes I know I threw something on fun just
to kind of change it up a little bit I
didn't get a chance to do makeup like
you normally I was busy doing my nails I
videoed it yes I did for sure so I got
that done anyways okay now I can pay
attention
welcome welcome you guys hope to get
more people in I have a lamp on in here
so it's kind of hopefully a little bit
brighter and not so dark
oh I don't want him in here cuz that
means that he has to you know he has to
bring the kids with him thank you so
much I am so excited that I was able to
lose the three pounds this week it was
you know especially like I was saying in
my video like I wasn't expecting to lose
anything because just though kind of
week I was having so when I was able to
get on there I was just like yeah
how is my night going so my night is
actually going pretty pretty well oh
let's see
the kids have been playing Jeremiah
actually asked today if he could get
into my craft bag and I was like yeah go
for it like he's never asked to do
crafts but he's just bored and so I was
I can't let go for it so I let him do
that and he's made oh my god he's made
some like really cute little things for
his brother and sister I'm like yeah I
like this little crafty man I told him I
said as you get older and you know you
show me responsibility I'm gonna let you
start working with me with my uh my
business and he is so excited so I'm
really excited to get him involved in
and help him like learn the techniques
and stuff because I think it's something
that he that's an age for he likes doing
it um when you wear your hijab can't it
be a struggle like when it's hot weather
or used to do by the way congrats on
your weight loss so honestly hi Pam
welcome um honestly I'm so used to my
hijab now it doesn't it's not an issue
to me um sure in the summer time it has
gotten warm but really in in if you
think about it in this way in summertime
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when is it not hot you know I mean Pam
you should feel honored so in reality I
mean if you think about it in one aspect
it's you feel hot in summer time but
everybody feels hot in summer time
there's ways that I can cool down I mean
I'm like cool down but I mean who
doesn't I mean I've seen people stand
there and wave their shirts up and yeah
even if I have an office it's still
gonna be warm um hi Amy welcome Thank
You Pam I truly appreciate it and I you
know I love having fun with it I love
being able to do different things with
it and design it up the way that I can
and in fact I'm hoping hoping that with
my business stuff I'm hoping that I can
like um do some fun little things on it
I don't know I don't know what's gonna
look but it's always worth the try so
yeah I just play around with what I'm
doing which of these ones actually I
don't know if you guys can see it I want
you myself in the monitor along with
watching myself down here like to see
how funny I look anyways I got these
ones from Kraft Michael's craft store
because I was there the other day and
they would have an incentive and it was
like this one I got a whole bunch of
like really pretty flowered ones I was
like yeah and they were only three
dollars after the $50 pick you know 50%
off sell that they were on so yes I am
so excited for my business to Pam I
can't wait I'm like I was gonna actually
break the boxes open today but
I did it was I did my nails instead
because they really needed to be done I
tore off my set last night and they were
driving me and same not being done so I
did them but this time it's really cool
the polish that I have it will work
itself up to where it will be clear down
here and then it will be right on the
tips I just I am I'm so in love with
these ones they're a little bit thick
for my liking but I was running out of
acrylic and so it was getting a little
bit at the bottom so later they did not
turn out as thin as I like them but I
mean it's alright especially with like
starting to do the business and stuff I
kind of wanted to do them a little bit
just a little bit thicker just in case
you know there's a little bit more to do
with my fingers so yeah most Muslim
girls don't put different designs on the
hijab you're different and I like it
thank you
yeah I think everybody has their own
like way of wearing their hijab some
wrap them some use these mine I do have
more like this because it's just easy it
is just something I got to get out the
door I just put well I don't hit my
glasses and bust em but I flip it on and
I'm done I don't have to sit and piddle
puddle except I have my hair like all
the way up right now normally I put it
up here like when I'm just out and
around my house my I have a bit old but
on the top of my head while I forgot and
I was like getting late to getting on
here so I just flipped it on I'm like oh
well I'm gonna look like a cone head for
the night how do you do your prominent
yeah you don't honestly I am a righty
and I'm a lefty I know there's a special
word for but I don't know what it's
called I taught myself to be a right
hand and a left hand person so I I have
that my advantage I remember I was in
hell I was either in first grade or
second grade
and I actually yes perfectly
that is right that's exactly what it is
i sat in class one time and I remember I
was born I was born a straight board and
I sat there and I taught myself I just I
wanted to write on my left hand and so I
sat there and I did it and now it's like
Ollie if my hands are full in my right
hand he'll like give me your left hand
and then I'll just sign it away and he's
like oh that's so nice that you can do
both but yeah I shot myself actually so
for me when I'm doing my nails it
honestly it comes natural for me it
feels like I'm doing just the same thing
with my right as I am with my left my
left hand I will say is a little bit
more trickier at times but for the most
part it's pretty easy are you that's
awesome I mean I know that there's not
as many out there my niece actually on
my husband's side he or she is
we were thinking she's a lefty and she'd
be our only lefty besides me and but
like blood wise she would be the only
lefty in our family so it's kind of cool
but yeah it's quite interesting um but
yeah back to what I was gonna do today
is I was gonna bust out the boxes and
start doing some fun some fun crafting
but then I was like I need to do I need
to do my nails get that done and then
I'm gonna pop open my true glow my
facial scrubber but so excited I'm gonna
do a review on it tonight I'm in a video
that or take that tonight excuse me
after my live so I was like yeah why
don't I do this and so tonight I'm gonna
I went and I got some Oh what is it
called
Sita filled
um I noticed that and I never ever ever
ever asked the issues with my face like
never and all of a sudden I don't know
if you guys that's not a zit that is
actually dry patches of skin and it is
like scaring me so bad I'm just like
knitting and in it no we do not have
this issue with skin with me so I am
going to actually use that tonight and
start moisturizing my face and seeing
what what's going on because my skin is
changing and I don't know maybe it's
with age I thought about that I thought
why I wonder if it's something with age
because I never have like oily skin I've
never had dry skin I've never I just had
normal just everyday skin and told me
that's too dark if you guys want me to
turn the light back on it doesn't bother
me either way but anyways I just I am so
upset with the way my skin is it's so
I'm hoping that I can find something
that will work better but I'm thinking -
maybe with age it's changing it a little
bit maybe with my weight loss it's
changing due to different eating habits
I don't know I'm just it's really weird
because I've never had skin issues and
all of a sudden this last probably I was
in probably the last four months I would
say it's been pretty pretty you know on
the tight side of all these little
things that Jeremiah actually I think
he's gonna be the one that I have to
worry about the most with acne because
I've noticed he is just all broken out
and I feel so bad because I don't
him to have a face broken out like that
so I've been really I'm gonna use that
with him on him too I'm gonna use that
situ filled on him and we're gonna wash
his face every night and I'm gonna
moisturize it and see if that won't help
but he gets it like really bad broken up
broken out up here and down on the side
of his face and I'm just like him
luckily lucky I can barely use one and
ELISA is the same thing he's like I
don't know how you could write so nice I
do I look like the Kimmy Gardner or
maybe even a breeze for my left hand is
a bit more messy with the writing but
either but neither works like it should
um yeah I can see I mean I will say my
left hand is a little more messier than
my right hand but definitely I can do
both if I had to obviously but I gotta
pull it out I know if I gotta pull the
extra guns out um let's see
weight loss has made my skin more of a
combo and it could it could be maybe
that just you know and plus working out
a little bit more I mean I obviously I
haven't been working out as much as I
really want to and I know that I'm
hoping I have an appointment with my
what are they called
my orthopedic surgeon Salaam to you -
welcome
I have an appointment with my orthopedic
on the 3rd of January or the 4th so I'm
hoping hoping hoping to get to the
bottom of what is going on with this leg
I want to get back to my exercising
regiment and you guys I have some major
major milestone goals that I am going to
do I told ollie today that I am shooting
for my one-year anniversary which will
be July 11 my one-year anniversary is
I want to do a 5k and so if I want to do
a 5k I got to get my butt movin and so I
am so excited you guys this is gonna be
something that is very exciting for me
my six-month mark will be January 11th
that is six months I am Judy met for my
100-pound mark by the 11 I know I said
New Year's but with everything that I
have been dealing with I I haven't I
didn't reach that and I won't by the
time clearly but I still have you know
why almost - almost two weeks to reach
my goal and I can do that in two weeks
it's gonna take a lot of dedication but
I'm willing to do it and give me give it
my all and so I am shooting for the
100-pound mark by the six-month mark
which will be January 11 and by my
one-year anniversary I want to be able
to do a biking and so I was talking to
my mom and she was like I don't want to
do it with you and I was like you know
what I will take all the supporters and
you know what even some of my supporters
might be wanting to join in and they can
join in and do the 5k with me just
straight through the computer I mean we
can take our phones everywhere these
days right so I am definitely I am I'm
I'm positive putting forth all my effort
to get this done but I definitely have
to have to get this under control with
my life but I'm not gonna let my leg
dictate who and where and how I can be
even as painful as it can get any I mean
yesterday I walked for two and a half
hours and so you know I mean it it hurts
at times like last night I could feel
after I got done walking last night when
I came home and was resting on it and
then I got back up to walk
I felt like I was going to snap really
but it it is what it is and through the
MRI they said that they seemed off
austrial off arthritis I know I'm
completely saying it wrong
100% brought on by myself 100% brought
on by myself by the choices of the way
that I've chosen to live and carry my
weight it's broken down my knee
completely down to bone to bone a lot of
it and I'm not willing to get a knee
replacement yet because that's gonna
take me out of the game for a long shot
and I don't I don't not yet I've got too
much to do before I take myself out of
the game for a while because otherwise
I'm just really doing physical therapy
and I don't want that just yet so and
then there's some fluid on the knee but
with my surgeon appointment I'm hoping
that he might be able to osteo right yes
okay haha thank you for saying it that
way
perfectly imperfect I am so excited for
you now new to your channel still
haven't caught up what is your total
loss so far if you don't mind me asking
but that's sorry I didn't even see that
for some reason my comments out showing
up on my my camera but they're showing
up down here so I'm sorry and I
apologize you guys as I look down and
trying to I catch my catch my own
comments and my messages um so total as
of yesterday I am down now you're gonna
make me do some math yeah oh now hold on
turn it out
I really had to stop you guys can do
some map like that sad but I do not do
not do numbers in my brain because I
will be completely off
I have lost a total of 72 pounds so far
five months so that's where I'm at so
far and welcome to my channel and
perfectly imperfect I don't know if
there's a better way to call you if you
don't mind me just saying perfectly
imperfect or if you want me to say the
whole name you let me know but welcome
to my channel I hope so much that you
find as much enjoyment as a lot of other
people have and I am so excited to have
you here and on my journey with me I am
so excited yes
72 pounds it's an amazing feeling you
guys um I really thought that I would
feel different but I think it's because
you can call me pure or tree oh all
right well you know I'm gonna be the
Hopa so what I'm gonna call you tree um
but no I thought that I feel a lot
different but I think that's just
because again I have dealt with my knee
so corsets excuse my silliness he's
calling at me and his father is getting
him yes on
yes it is I will give him to you in just
a moment okay
he wants this elephant um but yeah I
really felt that I would have lost a lot
more I'm not lost of all my sorry
thought I would have felt a lot
different but I will say that no matter
what I still feel so much better because
now I'm not in motor carts you know I
was so excited I was so proud of myself
yesterday when I went to Target I walked
straight into the store and looked
straight over at the section where they
have the motor cards
I was like oh they got one and then I
was like why am I even asking myself
like this question like why am I even
jumping to that like absolutely not you
mean hit your little lazy Buffalo bum up
and Joe walk and I did and I felt so
good I walked all around the store I
just had so many things that I wanted to
look at at the store and I was just like
ash yeah I'm seeing your messages but
see they're popping up I think because I
get him early or here and then on my
camera I think it's actually what's
going on I thought they weren't coming
up here but they are it's just I'm
trying to keep up with messages um okay
I can't do a 5k but I can definitely
join on other ways we well like I can
watch you live but actually do a 5k not
at this point yet hey you know what you
do a hundred percent what you can do I
would never want somebody to push
themselves past the point that they can
do that would just be a hundred percent
like not I mean I wouldn't want somebody
to do that so I want you to be able to
join in whatever way you can as
comfortable as you can it's
Oh
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Jody I'm sorry I am a spoiler oh I know
I'm so naughty
um but yeah but yeah I was able to walk
around the whole store and I felt just
so amazing like um okay let's see happy
evening to you too Jody and again I
apologize for being that spoiler um uh
yeah I'll have to watch that next time I
didn't even think about it yeah it's
okay should we just repeat just in case
you didn't see um yeah if I don't answer
your question just repeat it a couple
times and I'll catch up eventually
I promise
but yeah I definitely just want you guys
you know to be able to be a part of
anything that you can on my channel in
support of me but also I want to be able
to support you guys so you know I plan I
you know we're we're still six months
away from that point well almost six
months away from that point we will work
out all the details I've got to make
calls for my city to find out where
there's a 5k can be being pulled around
July because that will definitely be
around the time well that would be my
one-year mark so in that time I am going
to be training for it so I will
definitely bring you guys along if I
don't spit at you at all that was
disgusting um anyways I definitely will
bring you guys along for my trainings
and I'm just gonna push forth and do
this and I'm so excited I am so so so
excited I can't wait to be able to do
this so yeah anyways anybody else got
any questions before we get going onto
our January giveaway um I already
discussed with Elizabeth skip this
let's get this question you don't want
to answer how does Maya take it since
you no longer celebrate Christmas and
she used to UM
honestly thank you for that question I
really appreciate that and I totally
don't mind answering any questions
anything you guys should know that by
now
but I really do not mind so I honestly
never really made a big Steve out of
Christmas one is because you know at the
time when I when it was just me and
Jeremiah it was a mom working my tail
off and you know money was always really
tight and honestly you know again back
to kind of what we were talking about
the other day Christmas is just not the
biggest thing for me so for me I never
owned a Christmas tree I just don't like
Christmas trees I don't like the
resemblance for Christmas trees for
myself you know that was just me
and so I never had a Christmas tree so
he was never really used to like
Christmas trees and presents and that
stuff but he
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I think because I've never really made
it such a big thing to him that he
really didn't have a felt of loss if
that makes any sense
like he I really don't think it really
even bothered him it didn't even really
you know I mean I gave him the option
but he chose he didn't want to and he
chose that he wanted to convert to Islam
and he wanted to do all the things like
I never made him convert just because I
was converting I let him make that
choice for himself as his own individual
and that's just kind of how I raised my
children and Omar Ness are a little bit
different because they they were born
into it but he wasn't born into it you
know I really never took him to church
or anything like that like a few times
but again I am so paranoid of anybody
taking care of my kids even him when he
was little that I didn't want to take
him and put him like in the nursery or
anything like that and I want to say I
probably put him in the nursery like
twice in his whole life and the whole
time I was like standing outside looking
through the that one-way mirror thing
like totally like making sure he was
okay so it wasn't like it was even
enjoyment to me because I stood watch
the whole time he was in there so I
never really took him to hi Laurey
welcome and I did not ever take him like
so like church church so even though I
considered us Christians at the time it
wasn't like it was really but on him so
he really didn't have a sense of any set
of a religion so when that time came
that I chose to convert you know I did
not bring it up to him immediately I let
myself kind of get the feel of it and
then I saw him John explained you know
what I was doing what my choices were
and that he had choices that he could
make for himself when he wanted to and
he didn't make a choice right away he
kind of you know sat back and I think
watched a little bit and then he chose
to want to convert and he
you know in his conversion was he just
chose he wanted to become a Muslim and
he's taken up the fasting when he turned
five so in Ramadan which will be coming
up here and May I believe you fast for
30 days and that's 30 days from Sun up
to sundown you do not eat drink smoke do
any type of sexual connection nothing
and so and you like you refrain from
like anger Yuri fame real reframe
because you're really focusing on
yourself and getting closer to you know
Islam and things like that and so when
he was five he chose to wanna fast for
the very first time now somebody asked
me yesterday I want to say yeah it was
yesterday someone stamped me and they
were just curious they said you know how
does that work with the kids because I
would think that you know that would be
like starving them and I said well first
of all over and s4 don't fast they're
too little they don't know they do not
know the difference Maya again that was
a choice that he got to make for himself
when he was writing when he wanted to do
it and so when he was five he came to me
and said hey I want to fast I was like
are you sure and we went over you know
why we fast and things like that and he
at that time we only had him fast from
the time he woke up cuz he was in
kindergarten so from the time he woke up
and he was an afternoon kindergarten so
he would wake up at like 9:00 and I
would only let him fast until noon and
so there was only a couple hours and we
did that for the first like four or five
years yester our yesterday no not
yesterday this last year was the first
year that he that he actually fasted for
the entire time from sunup to sundown
and that was the
in school and I was really concerned and
his mom you know I go on the defense and
oh my gosh he's got to have fluids and
he's got to have water but you know what
Maya again he has his own places you
know and I told him and he knows if he's
at school and he feels he needs to eat
or if he needs to drink you break fast
and you do those things if you're not
feeling good you go to the office you
happen call mommy and I will come and
pick you up like we have a ground plan
and he knows like there was one day last
year that there was a party at the
school and he wanted a cupcake everybody
was having a cupcake and it was during
fasting and he broke his fast so he
could have a cupcake and you know what I
was not mad at him I was and I did not
get disappointed in him
you know I told him it's okay you know
we're learning these are learning things
you know and he was really upset with
himself and I just told him I'm like
Jeremiah it's okay like you know things
happen and you wanted a cupcake and so
yeah it was it was nice that we were
able to do that so for the the part
about Christmas it just wasn't made such
a big deal that it really wasn't a loss
on his part and I make such a big deal
throughout the year for our other
holidays but he doesn't have that sense
of you missing anything so it makes it
really nice and it balances itself out
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may I ask why you didn't want to be
Christian like you didn't like it just
curious so to that question um it's a
very touchy situation because I don't
want to offend anybody and that would
never be my you know I would never want
to offend but I was chosen ly raised
Christian because that's what each of
the families were when I was being
raised by them I never had an actual
choice for my own self like I never was
able to just make the choice for myself
it was it was chosen for me and
even when I was raised Christian the
families that I was raised with it was
very different in Christianity than the
way that I seen other families my family
we would you know put our sunday clothes
on we go to church we praise God and you
know we would sing a little ways our
hands and we worship and you know we
were all conky dory and then we would go
home and it was you know back to back to
reality of regular gosh I'm sorry I
don't need to be boban y'all but um so
it wasn't like I I have nothing against
Christianity I just feel like it wasn't
the religion for myself after I did a
lot of research and a lot of my own my
own research of my own readings of my
own seeking I felt that Christianity
wasn't for me but again I don't judge
others that are Christian I don't judge
others that are any other religion like
it's not that's not my place to judge I
do me and that's it and I raised my
family and my children this way and then
as they get older they choose in their
heart what they want so if you know I
wish that my family was accepting of it
I wish that let's see what are the crowd
what's the other questions before I jump
to the next subject by the way did you
ever get backlash for choosing to be
Muslim one question is it that you can
only let your husband see your hair I
have been so curious I heard that a
while back
what was your family's reaction to your
covering okay I'm glad you asked that
pin because I was kind of where I was
leading into
um most of us in my families follow
different faiths but I love it my
parents let us find our own paths okay
so I'll start kind of up from the up and
and work myself down so that okay I'm
gonna kind of combine some of these
questions so that way then it's all
because it's pretty much the same
questions um what was my family's
reaction to my conversion so my mom was
incarcerated at the time when I
converted so um I didn't really have a
lot of time to talk to her about it
because you know we had timed
conversations obviously when you're
incarcerated you only have a certain
amount of time so it was very hard to
really talk to her and get a real
connection of how she felt and with the
rest of my family I lost every one of my
family members every one of them have
turned away from me they don't want to
speak to me in fact I seen one of my
family members just for the other day
and she ran out that store so fast and I
was like my god what do you think I'm
gonna do I'm a human being but she ran
so fast out the store I was just blown
away at how fast she took off almost
like she was so in such fear and I
thought my god you know I'm so sorry you
feel that way or maybe she was afraid I
was gonna you know approach her and say
hi you know i-i've changed yes I have
changed immensely since I have converted
but I have changed immensely in the best
ways ever and I am so sad that my true
blood could not see and be happy for
for me in general and that they can't
see who I have become you know because
I'm totally somebody different so to
answer your question yeah I don't have
any family my mom tries to my mom tries
to she tries to talk the Christian talk
to me a lot and you know and I respect
her she's my mom and you know but I also
remind her all the time that you know
this is my choice
you have your choice to be the religion
you want that's the awesome thing about
being free to choose you know what we
want to do in life and I'm so again sad
that my family truly cannot just accept
me you know but they claim that all he
physically beats me all the time I'd
love to know when but yeah he beats me
and some of these fellow members sadly
have never even well I'm not sad you
said rather have not meet these family
members if this is the way they feel but
they have never even met him but they've
got a whole profile on him that he's a
womanizer
he's a woman-beater he has taken me away
from everybody but in sadness it's the
complete opposite they've turned their
back on me so it's really sad but you
know what it is what it is I I still
will love them from a distance because
that's how I am
but I will not put myself in that
position to have to allow myself to have
my husband called these things when he
has been nothing but good to me never
has he ever made me feel like I've got
to be in fear of my life so it's just
craziness
okay I know there was a question about
my hair oh yes
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Laurie okay so to answer your question
you said is it that you can only let
your husband see your hair I haven't so
curious I heard that a while back so
here's the thing women can see my hair
the men that can see my hair arm is my
husband my sons people that I would
never have sexual or like men I can't
say sexual sorry that came out wrong
um I could not someone cannot see my
hair in the male aspect if it's somebody
that I could technically marry talking
about like my husband's friends and
things like that but that is so like if
I'm home I can have you know I can wear
shorts a tank Thompson you know no hijab
and all of that but if I'm out then of
course I dress down because you know men
cannot and it's for the sense of being
modest and your beauty is for your your
family for your husband you know of
course that's the number one is that
your beauty is for your husband and also
it just teaches self-respect you know
and I even before I was converted I
never wore like short shorts out of the
house I mean I worked fries and tank
tops that was my that was my go to I
wore those all the time because I just
and I I am always a hot person now I'm
not so much but that's because I think
my body has been so used to being
covered but um okay
most of us in my okay most of us in my
family follow different face but I love
it my parents let us find our path and I
I really wish that more people were like
that I really wish that other families
would embrace everybody's choice to
believe as they
and not it's not gonna affect any
individual let everybody be who they
want let them write their own stories
and take their own path sticks at the
end of the day only you are the one
that's gonna face god nobody else you
know I mean everybody's going to but
nobody's going to face God for your
actions so let them make those choices
for themselves and see where they go in
life you know it's not my job it's my
job to raise my children the way that I
am right now but at the end of the day
it's my children's job to be who they
want and for me to respect and love that
my children have a choice I'm trying to
catch up on comments so okay um is that
because of the profiling of Muslims that
they react the way they do yes yeah
totally 100 percent in it's very sad
it's sad because if people would really
take the time to really know who we are
as individuals that's the biggest thing
is that we are all individuals we all
are responsible for our own actions our
religion doesn't make us who we are our
religion is how do I say this our
religion our religion doesn't define our
personal beings our religion calls us to
be certain people and you know since I
have converted radiation I'll answer you
in just a second I'm trying to catch up
on comments so I where did I go I look
like kind of got lost their religion so
for since I have converted let me touch
myself here since I have converted I
have never met I mean Muslim I have
never met somebody that was ever
terrifying or has ever hurt somebody if
anything I have always been accepted by
open arms and and that's just not saying
because I am a Muslim but I am
we I I think that it's sad that
everybody is put into a bubble because
of some people that make bad decisions
but if you really look at it in all
aspects you know in Christianity there's
bad people in Islam there's bad people
and you know in Buddhist there's that
people there's bad people everywhere in
every race in every culture and every
religion in every sex there are bad
people unfortunately but the reason that
Islam gets targeted the most is one
because it is it's obviously under the
light people have brought it under the
light because of proclaiming that
they're you know Muslims when they do
stupid things so it has made everybody
look bad but I can guarantee you that I
personally being a Muslim for five and I
have almost six years I have never met a
mean person and I'm around them quite
often I mean I've been to Egypt so I
mean I even in Egypt they all opened me
with open arms and I wasn't a Muslim
then I was I was regular I don't know
how to say I mean I what's in I have
like ten arms but you know I mean I was
just a regular person I wasn't a Muslim
and I felt like everybody embraced me
and accepted me so awesome it was
amazing okay so let me go up just a
little bit
perfectly imperfect okay so tree I
totally have a percent agree that there
is nothing to fear fear the human not a
classic group yeah and I I agree with
that
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Caitlyn does it bother you that Muslim
faith requires girls above the age of
five to wear hijab it's a way of modesty
but I don't see why a five year old
would be sexualized that way um okay so
here's the thing for me I'm under the
understanding and this has been taught
to me by others that you do not cover
until you start your cycle as a woman as
a female so like Esther oh my daughter
she will not have to she if she wants to
play around and she wants to put it on
she's more than welcome to I mean it's
everybody's own personal you know thing
if they want to do it earlier in life
and then that's that's totally up to
them but I would never force it upon my
daughter she would not have to be she
would not be expected to put a hijab on
until she starts her cycle and that's
when she would put her hijab lon and so
if she's heard her cycle at nine well
then she would wear hijab at nine if she
was to start her cycle at fifteen then
that's when she would start wearing her
hijab but I I've always been under the
understanding you wear the hijab at your
own choice in your own discretion maybe
there are some that believe differently
everybody sometimes has their own
thoughts of that some women do make
their children cover at younger ages for
me personally I'm gonna go by what I've
been taught which is that they can she
can wear her hijab whenever she chooses
and she's put mine on and played around
with it around the house you know and
stuff and none died it's totally keeled
but I would never expect her you know
she wears shorts in a bathing suit and
you know and all those things and I
would never expect her to be different
until she starts her cycle and they're
not
to start buckling down and having more
respect for our bodies and you know and
just teaching her the good dynamics of
things that you know we all teach so
okay again I'm catching up on comments
um oh sorry
um radiation I have a question why did
you choose to be a Muslim so I chose to
be a Muslim because it was my choice I I
didn't know about Islam before I met my
husband Ali I had no in fact when like
you watched movies and you see the
Muslim people and then what's more it's
more spoken about then it was back when
we got together 10 years ago that when
you would watch movies and there would
be people you know doing their prayer I
thought it was an Indian thing so for me
personally I didn't even know what Islam
was until then and he has started to
talk about you know a little bit of the
religion with me because I would ask
questions because I was really curious I
just didn't even know anything about it
I had not I didn't even know it was
called Islam I didn't know there was
something called Muslims I had seen
people covered but I thought they were
part of the Indian culture I had no clue
anything different and then when he came
or actually when I went back to Egypt in
2009 I really was very watchful I just
wanted to see you know what he was about
and what you know Egypt was about and
who these people were and and I valued
how respectful he was to his prayer
times and
the Quran and the way that he respected
the women around him and how the women
are all treated back there I was just so
amazed like shocked so when he came to
the States
I was already doing a little bit of just
my own self checking but I really didn't
know much about it and then when time
came I did a lot of my own research I
didn't talk to him about it I didn't
want to ask him any questions I would go
to him at times but it wasn't like I
wanted to go to him only because I
wanted to do a lot of research myself
and one day I went into the room he was
that he didn't even know he had just
gotten off a 24 hour shift and I woke
him up and I was like I want to convert
to Islam he was like what I totally took
him off-guard he was not expecting that
at all so to answer your question I
converted to Islam for myself I totally
did not do it for my husband like I said
I had asked him questions but that was
purely all I did he never ever ever
would bring it up to me had I not been
converted ever he would have still
stayed married to me I asked him not
actually a few days ago I was like if I
would have never if you if I never had
converted would you have still stayed
with me he was like well yeah I wouldn't
have I and I was like well I don't know
because I'm just curious like you know I
I don't know I guess because I've been
converted for five years now and we've
been married 10 years
I just I'm curious to know like would
you have ever stayed with me is like Amy
I married you with you not being a
convert and you know like being
converted I loved you then I would still
love you now I love you you know I love
you for everything that you are but I
would have loved you anyway so that's
her answer I hope that helped a little
bit um okay
Republican Ashe did she did it for her
chips and husband I think I am Not sure
I'm I'm multitasking right now yeah Ashe
no no no I did not I do want to make
that very clear I
did not do it for my husband I did it
for myself and I take full
responsibility for my own conversion my
husband had nothing to do with that of
course he had inspired me by what he did
and how he held himself and how he
followed his lambs so religiously in the
sense that he was very faithful to it
that inspired me to start you know
searching my own place in life because
like I said I wasn't really Christian I
was raised Christian but I didn't feel
like I was a Christian I wasn't anything
so I wanted to find what I wanted to be
and be something for myself
so I just you know I I didn't want I
don't want people to think that I did it
for our always safe because I never I
never did it for always saying I did it
solely for my own choices
and I don't take offense that you
answered it like that because a lot of
people probably think the back but it
definitely is not for that okay heart
matters the most not the looks our
religion radiation King in Denmark we
deport Muslims to an island no joke
Wow I had no idea of that Wow Wow
is there a reason that they deport them
to an island like are they stuck on the
island or are they able to come off the
island or is there somewhere that
someone comes to get them like how does
that work
Jodi she did it because she wanted to
yes
she already answered the question go and
listen if you're going go to be nozzoli
whoops okay didn't mean to jump to that
conclusion sorry or jump to that word um
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let's see
Oh Oh God S word my
what I guess a lot of people are just
curious people are always curious about
things that are different I guess it's
buzz but you don't see many Caucasian
women wearing the head wraps in the
south and into that is very true Jodie I
agree a hundred percent and you know
they're I think it's becoming more of a
thing now
because Islam is getting more popular
and I don't mean popular but it's one of
the fastest growing religions out there
and so besides Christianity and so it is
becoming more so for me it's you know it
I believe that I think it's gonna come
more as the years go by because like I
said it's just as fast if not faster of
a growing religion then even
Christianity but that's nothing that you
know again I love every religion so I
just I choose to embrace this lamb but
it doesn't mean somebody that sits next
to me that is a you know a Judaism or a
Christian or a Buddhist or in witchcraft
I'm not gonna I would never
hold on sorry who did I say asked the
question about the head wraps in the
south Lauria I'm sorry but anyway so yes
I just just to answer your question I
embrace everybody I love everybody so
much and I just hope and pray everybody
loves me well it wasn't a question just
a comment okay
sorry
um I don't know we deport unwanted
people and not by religion in general I
you know I don't really even know much
about Denmark
you know I think that would be something
cool to do more research on Denmark I've
never really even heard much about it I
don't know if I've really even heard the
word Denmark but a couple times so in
tonight's one of those nights so I will
have to do some of my own research on
that because I really have no idea you
know I'll talk to Ali about it too
because he's really good about knowing
stuff like that so maybe he can help
point me in the right direction of where
to read or look up or something but
that's very interesting radiation I
really thought that I would put that out
that that's really that's Wow and how is
the life in Denmark chair I would love
to hear
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I don't think it is getting more members
it's just walked into the Western world
by the violence of work um and yeah I I
will agree with you radiation you know I
think that it's I I think that what
you're saying it is is remotely I
believe that that is very true I think
that it's been opened up more and
brought on a more due to attention that
it's brought from the war I think that
that's had a lot to do with it I don't
want to go too much into that because
I'm very uneducated about a lot of that
on that part
I'm very uneducated nothing wrong with
that we would do the same as we were
attacked and and yeah I agree I just I I
am for some reason just not a very
educated person when it comes to like
Lauren stuff and I really keep very far
distant from like the news and things
like that because my heart just can't
take it it it just writes me down too
much so I choose not to listen to a lot
of it but I do as much reading and
searching that I can for the most part
Laurie you are a very nice person
Amy and I wish you the best in whatever
you do thank you Laurie so much I might
really appreciate that and I just hope
that you guys fully understand that you
know I am a Muslim but that's not only
thing that might you know that I'm about
you know that that's what I choose to
believe in but that's not what I push on
people again like I've said before and
I'll say it again it's not my job to
push my really John to anybody I will
answer any questions that anybody has to
the best of my ability I won't answer
anything that I question myself on
because I don't want to give the wrong
statement but you know of course you
guys see me with the hijab on and and
that's very noticeable obviously but I
would never ever ever ever push mileage
on somebody just like you know I have
who wished that my family would be the
same in respect but it doesn't happen
that way that's okay
but I'm still a lovable person
I love everybody and that's just how I
am I love everybody there is nobody that
I'm that I don't love there was one up
here Tickle Me Elmo I am forced to
believe in Buddha if I speak out I could
die excuse me um I am so sorry that
you're forced into something that maybe
you don't want to be I feel so bad I
hope and pray that one day you can be
that person that you want to be if
that's not who you want to be if you
don't mind me asking where are you from
just out of curiosity again I embrace
everybody so I just you know definitely
want to to let you know that I you know
I would hope that you know you one day
would be able to be the person that you
and to be able to be able to serve the
religion you want and not be forced into
something or killed remotely because you
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